suddenly i have time to sit on my bed and stare into space
and think of nothing or anything. i can move slowly and paint
my nails and hang up my clothes... the answer to
do you want a second drink at dinner is yes.
it is the most fantastic feeling in the world,
it is also very lonely.
no longer will i spend every evening with the people that have been my family for the past few months...
no more playing hours of waterphone every day,
no more enjoying all of the yummy sweets that materialize in the green room for the taking,
no more birdie chimes :-(
i's so sad. ima make dark chocolate lavender macarons.